This is not an assignment I wish for any mother! I have always stood as a “Soldier” and will let my sons light continuously shine. 

Written by a friend of mine. Praying for you and your family Ida!


Proverbs 3:5,6

My son was murdered on Feb. 4th, 2016. Steven Wayne Spurlin Jr. saved my life 21 years ago. His light came from the Glory of God! It was undeniable. When I am stronger, healthier and able to be effective I will share my testimony. I will move forward to be an advocate for our children who are being thrown into piles of statistics by the very people we elect and pay salaries to. We are all made wonderfully unique and should be able to express who we are without being stock piled into categories of unworthiness. We fight day in and day out for animals on our planet that are becoming extinct. How wonderful it would be if we expressed that very same passion towards our children who are quickly becoming an endangered species!

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Love or Money 2010-2014

In the early 2000s, when I worked at WHS in Boone, one the teachers gave me a simple yellow ceramic star similar to these that said “Believe”. I had it hanging on my rear view mirror in the car for about 8-9 years to inspire me and remind me to look forward, rather than back. I knew I had work to do.

In 2010, when my son left for college, I put it in a collage I called “Love or Money” and after taking a bunch of classes at #OnTrack  and some quality time with an art therapist/artist in Asheville, NC I began painting again in earnest and made a number of changes to have more “life” vs. “work”.

The finished collage actually includes both the original star and the first Epiphany star I picked out of the basket at New Hope Presbyterian Church in Asheville. Along with all kinds of crazy mailers, credit card offers, journal entries, drawings, fortune cookie strips, magazine clippings, a ton of paint and some oil pastel.

I worked my way through many things during that time period (2010-2014). All of it led me to quit my job as an administrator and return to the classroom, to leave Asheville for Pinehurst, NC after I met my future husband, and finally led us to leave NC for Las Vegas, NV where I am now teaching 2nd graders. A few mission trips to Guatemala along the way helped me with perspective during those years too, and I know our Education Study trips with my gal pals inspired me to teach literacy and math in a 68% Hispanic, Title 1 school.

Who knew all of that could happen because of Epiphany stars? Let go and Let God! So thankful!

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Powerful retelling. In my 50 years, I have had some similar experiences. Mostly in my younger years. I can relate. Worth a read…



When I was six years old, I gave my first blowjob.
“It’s a game”, said He. “Don’t you want to play?”
It was too big, and I threw up on him.
He said I’d do better the next time.

When I was seven years old, I watched a group of fellow second graders cheer as a boy in my class tried to kiss me. He hugged me from behind, giggling all the while.
I threw sand in his eyes, and was sent to the Principal.

When I was eight years old, I had an elderly teacher ask me to stay behind in class. He carried me on his shoulders, and called me pretty.
“Teacher’s Pet!” my friends declared, the envy visible on their faces.
They ignored me at lunch that day.

When I was nine years old, an older girl on the school bus would ask me to lift…

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Thoughts on Education in North Carolina

The turnover rate in NC schools is and has been tremendous for the past 5-7 years. We felt it big time in my last school district, as over the years our administrative teams had to work in overdrive throughout the school year to hire between 15-40 teaching and staff positions annually. 

Unbelievably, it’s even worse in the middle of the state, right below the state capital. At our district’s new teacher orientation last August, I sat with hundreds of newbies, many of whom were moving into NC from northern states straight out of college, where I’m told they’ll start their careers and work about three years, before moving back to their home states and be able to get into teaching positions. 

This is because NC pay is so low by comparison, that these states use our educational institutions as proving grounds and don’t have to hire their own new graduates, since they can afford to pay for more experienced, seasoned teachers. Wow! How much money do we spend to take trips to recruit them, and then train them extensively through our new teacher process, only to lose them in three years. Millions! 

This represents a HUGE financial loss for us in the education profession, and for our students and their families as the relationship building ends far too quickly, which can then result in distrust, achievement gaps and drop outs down the road.

Meanwhile, day after day the past couple of years in NC school districts, we just pick up the pieces and begin again, and again, and again. It’s a shameful loss of taxpayer money going down the drain. Oh, but what a huge financial and relational gain for these higher paying states who benefit from all the lessons learned, time spent learning to nurture our young people and work with our families!! Good for them!

I have personally hired some staff over the years who have bucked the trend and made NC their home, but it’s been rare the past few years that things worked out that way, especially as the economy has taken a nose dive.

Last year, I was back in the classroom after 15 years as an administrator. First, I discovered something that’s broken about NC education pay scales. I was making a bit more salary annually in 10 months last year, and could  spend more time with my family, than I was able to make in an 11 or 12 month assistant principal position, working the 60-80 hours the job requires weekly in a secondary school in this state for years! That was truly crazy, and I wish I’d known it a few years ago, before mandated State and Federal testing took over the world of education. 

And, speaking of turnover, our small alternative school staff of 14 saw more than half of it’s teacher, teacher assistant and support staff positions turnover since last June in ONE school year! Some of these open positions were filled by high school and middle school teachers who traveled over from other schools in the system during their planning periods to teach our students. I saw the same strategy applied in our secondary alternative school in my last district. It doesn’t work!

Our strongest, highest paid teacher leaders should be recruited into these alternative school positions, because of their true love of this type of student and their exceptional teaching and management skills. These typically “under-achieving”, and unfortunately mostly minority students need lots of patience, structure and love. They need a different type of program than the usual school setting, but sitting them in front of computer screens for virtual school isn’t the perfect solution either.

Quality education everywhere is about relationships over time. The government of North Carolina needs to work harder on it’s own relationship with educational staff and students. The government’s daily consumers are also it’s producers since school employees, their student’s families and the future employers of the next generation of workers all pay taxes that help fund the education system. 

It’s way past time to come up with the money to provide more salary for staff and daily operations in our our public schools in a pro-active way. Years of research show that poor schools, among other things, do more to create and sustain poverty, the achievement gap and prisons than prevent them. 

NC must be competitive with other top school systems (not just states) throughout the country, especially since NC has a government run statewide pay scale.

It may already be too late. Other states and countries are out-spending on recruiting and hiring. Count me in on that total, as I rode the wave of professionals heading out of state too.  So long NC!

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Feeling Small in a Big Cosmos 03: Proverbs

Planet painting, interesting read…

Write Science

by Shane L. Larson

On 19 April 1610, Johannes Kepler wrote an open letter to Galileo Galilei, musing on possible future voyages that would allow explorers — human explorers — to see what Galileo’s telescope had shown.  He mused that some day inventors might “provide ship or sails adapted to the heavenly breezes, and there will be some who will not fear even that void.” Kepler called on Galileo to join him in preparing the way for those so0n to be travellers, and create a new science to light their way: astronomy.

Yuri Gagarin and the Vostok 1 launch on 12 April 1961. Yuri Gagarin and the Vostok 1 launch on 12 April 1961.

It was almost exactly 351 years before Kepler’s speculations were realized — on 12 April 1961 the Soviet Union launched cosmonaut Yuri Gagarin into space. In a flight that lasted only 108 minutes, Gagarin orbited the Earth in a capsule bearing the callsign Kedr (“

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Brown Bagged Weapons

As I look forward to year 30 in our public schools, and new adventures, I thought I would share a few highlights from last year –

January 2015

I should write a book, because you know what they say, just when you think you’ve seen it all…

What a testing week!! While I avoided the weeks of long hours of prep, pass outs and wagging my finger in my “Don’t make me shhhhh you tshirt” since I wasn’t the school’s  test coordinator, I never dreamed today’s perfect storm would happen…
Twenty three alternative high school students, on the 2nd to last day of first semester, had a FULL ON food fight in a small classroom lab full of computers while I was assigned to supervise them this morning.
 They put the good ole days of cafeteria food fights to shame with some early release day bagged lunches full of “weapons” (boxed raisins, baggies of mini carrots, milk boxes and pbj sammies, plus leftover breakfast cocoa puffs)!

I probably should’ve just joined in as I slid across the floor while throwing some myself. 
But, they were hitting each other with it, not me. Had to be an oversight on their part? C’mon, not a thing on me, really???? The odds were not in my favor as the only adult in the room!
Wish I’d thought to video tape it. I’m sure several of them did. 😜

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Walkin’ on Water, Jumpin’ off Cliffs

Me too! About three times in the past 2-3 years! Enjoy the ride E 😀

mission and mischief

One of my favorite sensations is something I discovered at camp.  It has to do with heigcliff-couple-glacier-pointhts, so those of you who tremble just thinking about the fourth rung of the ladder should probably stop reading.

Still with me?  Great.  I love that moment when I’m standing on a high point–a rock above deep water or a high ropes platform–and make the decision to leap off the ledge.  There’s this split second before falling when you realize that you are brave and that you are going to have a heck of a lot of fun because of it.  Have you experienced this?  If so, what I’m about to tell you next will make sense.

I quit my job.


Wheeeee!  Feel that rush? No? Is it just me?

Now, let me be clear here.  I did not have an awful job.  I was a middle school English teacher.  (Quit laughing.  It…

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